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If my love was enough we'd be together for at least 100 years.
I understand well we don't belong together but still you are the one I love and want to be with.
Finally we are here at last, sending off the last week of this eventful semester of college. A lot has happened to me, from learning how to successfully play texas hold'em to how to control my alcoholism (haha, jk). Anywho, I'm glad to be alive and kickin' with my family and friends. As the summer aproaches I can only hope for things to get better for me. Hopefully the war in Iraq will come to some sort of an end, and perhaps I can come to terms with my platonic love interest. But I am way too optimist haha. Until next time my silent audience, Farewell.
Some may tag a rainy day with a gray and dull attitude, but I have experienced the complete opposite. Yesterday was excellent in almost every way, despite the presence of rain all day. I went to school around 2pm, class was short and understandable even though I had a couple intermission naps. After then, things became movie like, just like I would've directed the cameras and written the script. If anything went wrong, I was unable to care.
Yeah, plent of presents. Now a days, anything under the tree with my name is a great present. I can't give myself the luxury of being picky.
This christmas, the best present was the one I gave myself. My nintendo Wii! ZING!!
Peace niggs
In my philosophy of life, there are only two types of people in this world: the ones that deserve to live and those that don’t deserve to live. Steve Irwin, in my opinion, deserved to live his life to the fullest. But, perhaps he did. That man saw something in those great beasts that we cannot. I hope I get to meet that man in heaven, God probably made his mansion in huge swamp so he can wrestle with his friends forever.
Normal is perfect, perfect is normal.
Because if only I could have a normal girlfriend, that would be a perfect girlfriend...after being with a not-exactly normal person can you understand and appreciate normality. Is normal a personal standard? perhaps. However if perfection is unavailable at a human level, that means normality is beyond our understanding.
Life is too simple. We choose to believe that our lives are complex, an excuse for our sins. The complexity of life begins when two entities first interact. We all see the world diferently and hence will never fully...
I've had it. I'm emotionally handicap. I am not able to care, this is my decay.
I love her, enough to cry and laugh at the time. I shouldn't have, I shouldn't have let myself love her.
I dont want to talk to her, I doubt she wants to talk to me either.
If this continues I know I will lose her. I will lose what I have never had.
Could I forget I ever liked her? that would be ideal. I have never loved someone so much, however the resault is unstable. I understand I am not capable to love.
I've had it! I will repress my emotions for my own good.
I will...
I can't forget the feelings that guide me to you.
You are the desire of my heart, you satisfy my anxiety to love.
Masochism is not my game, I am beyond the joy of pain.
I keep a false hope that some day you will take my heart,
and apreciate it as much as I appreciate your presence.
Your melodies are ticklish to my ears.
I appreciate the way you are, the way you smile.
Remembering how your skin feels, leaves me without care in the world.
Your absence is hurts but your presence is better than living.
You give my day a reason to be....
I didn's sleep at all last night. I had a blast with Karen. In case I suffer of amnisia later on in life and my laptop is still at my disposal. Remember Alex, you probably have never had anything more special with another person than with Karen Tang.
It's amazing how she lighten my last days in America. I feel like I have a chunk of my heart back with me.
So I feel fairly sick, but thats not rare in my life. I feel sick from the moment I wake up. Why? I suspect it to be the lack of sleep, or the amount of thoughts that I argue with myself day by day.
So I'm a 13 hour...
I don't care about anything now, this might not be a simple crush, but probably something meaningful for me. I can't tell her, it's to risky and the fear of rejection is oblivious to the fact that I might lose more than the last shred of dignity, but I might lose a great friend.
